Exactly one year ago today on March 10th, 2013 my life changed forever… You see up until that point in time, I really felt like I was ready for marriage and I had every intention of asking the girl I was dating to marry me on Christmas Eve. I had the ring picked out, she was my best friend, and we were in love with each other. I truly believe that. She knew about all my mistakes, my faults and failures, and even about my problem with pornography. What she didn’t know, however, is that I had started looking at it again 6 months before that day. She finally found out about it, I lied about it, and that was it. She was gone. And I hit the lowest point in my life.
Since then, God has lead me through countless trials and tribulations, highs and lows, and has presented numerous opportunities for me to use this not as a story of pity, but as another chapter in my never-ending testimony. And this chapter, although I didn’t know it at the time, has been one of the biggest blessings to me. Please don’t get me wrong: I loved that girl more than anything and she was the best friend I’ve ever had. I’ve told her things that I haven’t told anyone else, and we went through a lot together. But what I didn’t understand at the time is that God was going to use the ending of that relationship to bring Him all the glory when we weren’t bringing Him glory in it.
I have been single for a year now, and in all this time, I believe that God is bringing me into a relationship with Him that I have never before known. Every aspect of my life is falling into place at just the right time and it’s amazing to see how He is using my friends to encourage me and bring me hope. And it’s amazing to see the different things He is teaching me about the man of God He wants me to be and different aspects of who He is as God and His sovereignty.
A few months ago, I made a couple of covenants with Him about purity and kissing, and I believe that He’s called me to be single for another 5 months, and then who knows. All I know right now is that He used the one situation that absolutely destroyed 2 hearts and lives to bring Him all the honor and praise in His perfect timing. And I really cannot wait to see what God shows me next and to learn from my mistakes more than I already have been. He is such an amazing God, and I trust Him completely with my life.
He’s tearing down the walls that I’ve built up over the past few years, and He’s giving me the promise of Jericho. And with help, I’m reaching out to take it. I wonder what’s going to happen when I reach it…
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